Well today was not much of a good day, but Dave called me and made it much better.

He convinced me to join his youth group every Wednesday at 7:00 down the street, and have a good time. He says that there everyone is like a big family, and right now that is all I really want. mI am a little uncomfortable about the idea because I wont know anyone, and that girl we know as Tori will also be there. Yeah a lot of people at the youth group have been asking him to invite me and to get to know me, but I dont really care if they do, if I feel at all uncofortable then I wont go through with it. I just have this terrible urge to jsut cry out all of my stress today, but I just cant do that, becuase dave wouldnt want me to do that. Today he told me some very nice things such as "I love being around you" and "If you ever need someone to hang out with or talk to, just walk to my house" and also "Ill listen to you" ....somone listen to me? whoa that is a totallly new things. He always has been there but I didnt see it until now, and well, life doesnt seem so hard anymore. Being alone everyday after school and having no one to talk to or hang out with, having Dave tell me that I can walk down to his house anytime really made me happy. I think it has been about 2 years since I last walked to a friends house after school....its just that lonely in my neighborhood. Now I know that I really do have a friend that I can look to with my problems, and secrets, and know that he will listen to me and help me through them one step at a time. I know that he is there to help.